“AFR – I came here to get my certificates to show transplant center that I am okay with no chance of relapse. I came here to make my family happy. I came here to see if by chance I might get lucky and find something to help me stop drinking. I can’t tell you how many times in this life I have asked myself “why, why, why?” again and again. All my life I’ve been what I think is successful. I was given a gift in sports that always kept me in the spotlight, which I loved. In marriage I won. I got the prize, first place again. I was given the gift of children – boy and girl, healthy, beautiful and perfect. Again – winner, winner chicken dinner. And yet as always I managed to screw it up. All during this success was one common thread – alcohol. That success was overwhelming with lying, cheating, stealing, arrogance and I could go on and on. Those sins built up and the only way to forget them was to drink until I forgot. And it starts all over again. The facilitator told me in CBT that alcohol was the current problem. So I dug into the steps. 1, 2 and 3 are what I call the depression. I became honest again and left nothing to question. I believed I was scum, I hurt others, I hurt myself. 4, 5 and 6 got me out of the past, to believe I have a purpose. I can heal relationships and be forgiving as well as forgiven. I discovered who Kit is, I liked who I became. Not even realizing it’s who I once was. 7, 8 and 9 has given me something to work on – goals again. I gave up on setting them. I’m even going to work a daily To-Do when I get home.
AFR has made me realize I have to accept the past, don’t worry about the future. It’s all about choices; AFR has armed me to go to war. I know the enemy, I know what to do. It’s my thinking, now its Kit’s decision what to do; I just need to do it.”
-Kit D. December 2013